Thursday, October 4, 2012

I Hate the Marathon 5!!

Ok, so I gained the 5 pounds typical to preparing to run a marathon, and all I can say about it.... I HATE IT!!

I have spent the last year paying close attention to my weight and had lost about 13 pounds. It's driving me insane to watch the scale number slowly going up. I hate that I never feel full and I feel like I can constantly eat all day. I've recently come to terms with the fact that I am an emotional eater. After careful consideration that is not the reason for the weight gain, but all the carbs my body is craving right now.

I was secretly hoping I would be immune to this, I did get away with not gaining the Freshman 15 when I went off to college thanks to walking all over campus with a 20 pound weight on my back.

I have had issues with my weight ever since my college years when I went from being mostly active to sitting at a desk all day. I did gain weight during my last year in college thanks to my emotional eating (thank you stress!!) & having a bout of depression but nothing like how fast I saw it stack on with the job change. I realized at that point in my life, when I was 50 pounds more that what I was out of high school, I had to make a major change to my eating habits and successfully stopped gaining weight.

Next was the hard part, losing it!! I tried to start running once before and had little success, but I found other ways to get active instead. I tried running again a year later and with some encouragement I successfully became a runner. I have kept at it because of all the benefits it has done for me.
  • Lose/maintain my weight
  • Tone my muscles
  • Improve my self worth
  • Improve my mental strength
  • Realizing you can do anything you put your mind to!
I'm finding it hard to love running right now when it's failing me with my biggest struggle over the last 5 years. While I know this gain is likely only temporary, it's still hard. I worked so hard to get the weight off and I know I will have to face this road again. I have been trying to really focus on why I'm eating something and not just blindly eat.

I know the overall benefits have outweighed gaining the few pounds that I have and I just need to accept it. I will lose the weight again and I'm pushing to finally hit my goal weight of 125 lbs. by 2013.

I will admit that I habitually weigh myself every morning, am I the only person that does this?

Have you ever struggled with your eating habits?


  1. I'm up right now too. I'm hungry constantly! I'm eating healthy foods and it doesn't seem to even matter. Probably the million pretzels I've been eating with Hummus. Ugh. ANd now this whole week and next week we barely run!


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